Can't think of a title for this one

What happens when you think about someone that you think is perfect to be with for the rest of your life? What if you don't even see that person on a daily basis, what if that person is a relationship and does not think about you in the same way. Are you crazy?

No, I am not plagued with this thought the whole entire day, 7 days a week. It is more like an annoying little voice that likes to poke you when your mind is drifting: "Hey! Hey! What about her?". Actually I am probably insane.

Maybe its the lack of socializing I've been up to. Being under the drinking age here prevents me from going to many social gathering spots. Maybe I just don't want to deal with the hardships of a relationship right now. But it would be nice...Defiantly insane.

This could be linked back to some childhood event that forever traumatized my psyche! If only that was the explanation for it, then I could go to a psychologist, get some drugs and go home happy.

There are people in your life that you like to talk about different things with. Games with some friends, deep questions about life with a few and sex with others. With this person I can talk to anything about, I think thats great.

I feel that for this problem I will need closure, a conformation that 'no, this will never happen'. Either that or I probably end up married, unhappy and constantly wondering 'what if?'